And then I ran again

Yesterday was the day I ran again. It was short and slow, but I ran. My workout was 14 laps on the indoor track.  I completed a mile 2 minutes faster than I had a week ago and I really wanted to try to run. On lap 10 I finally ran a few steps just to see how it felt and it felt fine.  I didn’t push and I didn’t try to sprint but I think I just needed to know that I will be able to run again. I ran part of 2 1/2 laps and stopped when I started to feel a little pain. I won’t push it to try to run much before I am supposed to but now I know that I will be able to run again.  I guess I really did know, just like I knew I could bike.  But until I actually got on the bike and until I actually ran a few steps I still wasn’t sure that my body would do what I wanted it to. As I walked last night I kept thinking about when I would run again and if I just needed to wait until I could run with Sam for my first run. In the end I just needed to try on my own.

On the Achilles Blog a few of us have been debating how long it takes to really get back to 100%.  With an Achilles injury sometimes it feels like forever. In other ways, the time has passed quickly. I tend to put past injuries out of my mind pretty quickly. I don’t really forget that I was injured or forget that I might need to be a bit more cautious. Being in a cast feels like it was a lifetime ago though. This week I had to stop and remind myself that I had only been wearing two shoes for a couple of weeks. I am moving forward towards goals in the next few weeks and months.

It’s good to be back into a bit of a more rigorous training routine. This week I have had 2 days in the pool, a day in the studio with Sam that was pretty intense (and more so because I was on sugar overload that day), a full spin class and the walk/run yesterday. Tomorrow is probably my off day and on Sunday I plan on going out on the road to ride with a friend who will be doing her first triathlon in April.

I still think about how far I will be able to run and how soon I will be able to really run. I am still probably a good 6 weeks out from really beginning to run again and it could be longer than that.  I have a few deferred half marathons that I have to do the paper work for soon. The first one would be in October but I really don’t know if I will be up to 13.1 miles by then.  I am fairly certain that I will be able to do 5K’s again this year.  I am still hoping that my first triathlon is Luray in August. I will do the Aquabike in April and that should let me gauge how I am doing. I will also ride in Tour de Cure in May and plan to ride in the Hot Hundred in July. For both of those rides I will opt for the shorter distance.

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Back on my bike

I realized that it has been two weeks since I posted.  I have been quite busy with deadlines and other things.

Yesterday I rode my hybrid for the first time since August.  It was just a short ride around the neighborhood to see how it felt. It was great – other than the fact that it was pretty cold yesterday.  Last week I had my clip in pedals swapped for regular pedals until I get used to riding again. It is different to ride with the regular pedals but I think it is a good decision for now since my natural tendency is to clip out with my left foot first when I come to a stop.  While my Achilles is healed, it still needs to be strengthened more before I will be comfortable with the clips again. I am hoping that it is warmer this coming weekend so I can take my road bike out.

Bikes on my car

I have registered for an Aquathon in April.  It’s a short race and will be the first one since August (other than a one mile walk that I plan on doing in a couple of weeks).  Since it is so short I don’t foresee any problems – 150 pool swim and a 6 mile bike.  The run is 2 miles, so not very long either, but I am still uncertain when I will actually begin to run again.  Last week I began walking farther.  On Thursday I walked a mile and a  half, with a pace that was 3-4 minutes faster than what I was running a mile in the fall of 2010.  My physical therapist wants me to work up to 3 miles and then begin working on an incline on the treadmill.  Sam thinks I will be at 3 miles in about 3-4 weeks.  We aren’t talking about running yet.

I have a number of other things to write about and I will catch up soon.

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Swim, bike, run: Reflections on Recovery and the Next Stage

Bike

I saw my doctor on Monday so now I can officially wear two shoes. He said my Achilles tendon has healed and looks good. Now I need to regain the strength in my leg that I have lost. He thinks it will take anywhere from two to six months before I run again and leaned towards the six month mark. That is six months from now – so July. I hope it is sooner but I won’t push things too much so I don’t hurt myself again. I have read a few horrifying stories on the AchillesBlog about people re-rupturing their tendon and having to have further surgery.That is not what I want.

I can ride my road bike again so I need to take my bikes to VeloCity and have the pedals changed on at least one bike so I have an option of clip or non-clip pedals. In December I went through a period where I felt fairly terrified about ever getting on a bike again, let alone a bike with clip in pedals.  I seem to have worked through that. Now I am feeling a bit terrified about ever running again.  I’m sure I will work through it as well.

All of these photos were taken in 1965 when I was 5 years old.  It looks like I had triathlon figured out already then: swim, bike, run. I am hoping to enter a triathlon again later this year. My goal is the Luray Sprint in August.

I love these images because I look so carefree and pretty happy.  I was five though. (Ignore the dates. My mom never got around to getting pictures developed.) This reflects how I often feel when I am working out or afterwards.  There is a release and a calmness.  Yes, I often feel tired and sometimes have stiff or aching muscles as well. I sometimes tell Sam the weight is too heavy and rarely that I don’t think I can do something. But overall, working out consistently has been the best thing I have done in years.

Swim

On Sunday I bought a pair of Dansko’s.  They are great but they do take getting used to because of the additional support as well as not having worn shoes since Sept. 29th.  Tonight will be the first time I will wear my Brooks since September.  I imagine that it will feel a bit odd at first and will take some getting used to as well. I am afraid of tripping or falling down stairs so I am ultra careful.  (These are things I do and the reason my brother gave me several choice nicknames while I was growing up.) I will be working on balance with the physical therapist.  We had been working on that before I injured the Achilles tendon.  I start PT again on Friday so I am not sure what else she has in store for me.

This is certainly not something I would have chosen to go through but it has not been completely awful either. I was forced to stop and rest; to take some time that I needed (and I would gladly take another 6 weeks but not due to an injury). I have learned that I can continue to workout and that I can maintain my weight loss even if I am stuck hopping around on one foot. That makes me feel very positive for the future and for being able to lose the final weight I want to lose.

Running

I have worked on re-focusing on nutrition and need to continue to do that so my diet is also consistent. I need to create the time to prepare what I need for food and remember that it is a priority. That is not always easy when I have a million things to get done and deadlines looming.

Lunch is about over so I need to wrap this up for today. I’ll be getting back to writing more about my workouts, food and other things and not just injury.

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Two shoes

Today I wore two shoes for the first time since Sept. 29, 2011. It was quite exciting.  I was supposed to wait until morning but when I got up today I thought I would give it a try.  I took my boot along with me in case I needed it.  It went fairly well though.

Danskos (I don't think they are that ugly.)

The top photo is the right shoe I have been wearing with my boot and cast.  The left one is in a bit better shape. The bottom photo is of my new Dansko’s – my birthday present and shoes that have support. My podiatrist will be pleased. I have a bag of shoes to take with me tomorrow to see which  shoes I can wear and if I should avoid any.  Most are flat.  I haven’t worn heels much for years though I do have a pair I love.  I don’t think I will be wearing them anytime soon though. Many of the people on the Achilles blog wear Crocs to start off with after getting out of the boot.  My Crocs have the Bama Elephant on them and say Alabama Crimson Tide on them.  I suppose I could get away with wearing them to work but they do not match much that I wear.

I will write more after I see my doctor tomorrow.

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Friday’s child: A few random musings on my birthday weekend

“Friday’s child is loving and giving”

Fair warning that this really is quite random and perhaps a bit rambling.

My birthday is on Sunday this year but I was born on a Friday. The poem that I quote was part of my childhood and I hope I have those characteristics.

Lately I’ve thought a lot about the stories I have heard about my first year lately, probably because my oldest sister died in December and she was connected to many of the stories.

I have a letter that my grandmother wrote shortly after I was born. Grandma Jackson never wasted a name on a baby she thought might die so I am just referred to as “the baby” in the letter. I was premature and weighed less than 5 pounds.  I am 17 years younger than my next sister so they were not quite prepared for another baby. According to other stories I have heard, my sister Janet took me to the grocery store where she worked at the time to weigh me. I didn’t weigh as much as the bag of flour or sugar she put on the other side of the balance scale.  Janet and her roommates thought they could take care of me because I would not be much more trouble than their pet monkey. Janet has always made me laugh and has always taken very good care of me.

Barb, my oldest sister, and my sister Janet went and picked me up from the hospital. My mom was ill and remained in the hospital for some time longer. After that they all had to decide what to do with me. I also have the hospital bill from my stay after I was born.  I was there a week and the bill was $60.50. Barb kept me for a while but then my Aunt Leora came and took me home until my mother got better.  Little did she know she had me for life. She thought it was temporary and for several years I was told that there was always a chance that I would move back to my real parents at any time. It never happened though. I stayed with my aunt and uncle, who I usually just call my mom and dad. If I really start to talk about my family I just confuse people so I will skip that for now.

So it is my birthday weekend I have made it much longer than anyone thought I would when I was born. I’ve lived many places and have done many things that I don’t think anyone, including myself, would have imagined. If anyone had told me in my 20s that I would be living in Tuscaloosa, Alabama and be a library administrator when I was in my 50s I would have told them that was not likely. But here I am and it is now home. It’s hard to tell what the rest of my life will bring though.  I have never been one to proclaim what I will do in 5 years or 10 years or feel like I have failed because I didn’t meet someones goal for my life. I admit that I do get annoyed about other people’s goals for my life that have nothing to do with my interests, desires, or wishes, but deep down I do not feel like I have failed because I haven’t lived their dream. I have lots of dreams, wishes, and hopes right now. I’m looking forward to seeing what comes next.  For now I will just celebrate.

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Those Paula Deen pots and pans …and what I know about diabetes

Unless you really have not been paying attention you know that Paula Deen announced that she has Type 2 diabetes and that she will be a spokesperson for a new Diabetes drug. I’ve been reading the press and various blogs from the diabetes community, the health community, and registered dietitians. The responses range from enraged to providing a sensible view of what one really needs to do either to prevent diabetes (hopefully) or what to do if they are diagnosed. One of the most interesting posts I read was by Dr. David Katz about loving food that loves you back. He makes the point that food matters, that healthy diets matter, and that you can eat well without a pound of butter and a pint of sour cream.  I have written about diabetes on my blog over the past year and would rather write about what I have been doing this week as well as my personal experiences than to write one more post against Paula Deen.

Mamma called it Sugar: My family history

When my mom was diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes in the mid 1970s she referred to it as “sugar”.  I don’t recall her talking about having diabetes as often as she would talk about her sugar. She believed, as many people still do, that eating too much sugar caused the disease.  There are really many factors and complications associated with diabetes, however, and  part of them are due to genetics. The American Diabetes Association website, along with sites at the CDC and places like the Mayo Clinic provide facts and myths about diabetes. If you don’t know the warning signs or want to know the facts about this disease, I suggest you look at one of these sites.

I have written elsewhere about my memories of the small bottles of insulin in the refrigerator and the boxes of needles. In college I took care of my mom through her battle with her foot and finally losing her leg due to the disease. She also had strokes and heart attacks which are often related to diabetes. It is a serious condition.

She wasn’t alone for long. Almost all of my aunts on both sides of my family were diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes.  Several in my generation have been diagnosed and deal with the disease. We know more now than we did in the 1970s and 1980s about how to treat it and about complications. My mother remains in everyone’s memories though.

I began monitoring my blood sugar levels in college and have been faithful about that ever since. Cleaning out a hole in someone’s foot has a lasting impact. I do not want to face what my mom faced. As you know I have battled with my weight much of my life. One of the many factors that has caused me to be vigilant this time is that I want to avoid diabetes if I can. I know that there are genetic factors that I may not be able to fight but I can and will do everything I can within my power to avoid hearing my doctor tell me that I have the disease.

Conversations about Education and Advocacy

My week has been full of conversations about education and advocacy surrounding diabetes. I have been fortunate to attend two very good meetings with people who are passionate about doing everything we can to educate people about the disease and to try to end it. I have also had a number of conversations with people I know about the disease and the impact of it.

Earlier this week I attended the first meeting of the UA Diabetes Team. A number of us have talked over the past 6 months or so but this was the first formal meeting. There are a number of initiatives on campus to help people learn about what to do if they are pre-diabetic or if they have been diagnosed with diabetes. We discussed ways to educate people and how to develop training. Two students are leading an initiative that will take education to the Black Belt area. A lunch and learn program is being planned for March 27, ADA’s Diabetes Alert Day.

On Thursday I attended a board retreat for the Alabama/Mississippi ADA Community Leadership Board. It was four hours of intense discussion about what we can do in Alabama and Mississippi.  We learned about advocacy initiatives, education programs, talked about public relations, mission and how to raise funds needed for research and programs. I left tired but also energized for the work we have to do.

Safe at School is one of the many important advocacy issues the ADA works on. Parents and children need to know that they can receive the care they need when they are at school or participating in extracurricular activities. This initiative points out that care is a team effort that requires trained personnel and school nurses as well as the parents and child.

One of our signature events for fundraising is May 12, 2012 at St. Vincent’s 119. The Tour de Cure is a cycling event to bring attention to diabetes and to raise funds. I am the co-captain of Team Red Alabama this year. You can join the team or donate to the team by clicking on the link or you can donate to me if you want to here. I will be riding one way or another since there are options to ride on a spin bike this year as well as outside. Team Red is for anyone with diabetes or anyone who cares about diabetes – in other words, anyone can join Team Red Alabama. I am also working on an event that will be held in Tuscaloosa before the ride. A Spin-a-thon will be held on Saturday, March 31 at the UA Rec Center.  I’ll be posting more details about it soon. I’ll be working with others to recruit 100 people to keep 20 bikes spinning for 5 hours. Come join the fun.

I also had conversations with a few people this week about the difficulties of raising money right now and specifically about the difficulty of raising money for some causes. I sat with another person and talked about the number of people we know who are diabetic. The list was long – too long. Diabetes is not a disease that people necessarily talk about for many reasons. It is something that you live with every day though. Insulin has to be monitored. Attention must be paid to wounds in a different way than for most people. Diet and exercise are obviously factors as well.

One reason that I am pursuing an M.A. in Health Studies is because of my interest in education and advocacy issues related to diabetes. I hope that I will be able to make some kind of difference.

And I will use those Paula Deen pans that arrived earlier this week to cook healthy meals.

pots and pans

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Official acceptance

Acceptance

I’ve moved from a non-degree candidate to officially accepted in the M.A. in Health Studies program at the University of Alabama. Hooray!

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